Late Nights

I don't sleep at night anymore.

You might be part to blame.
I can't turn off my mind
nor my heart.
The phantom sensation of my missing breath
at an eternal standstill.

I Don't Think I Love You

HOOBASTANK

"I Don't Think I Love You"

I wonder what you'll take from me today
Sanity or just my breath away
It's hard to say
Impossible for me to tell
We're always walking on eggshells
Who you're going to be from day to day today

I wish that we could go back
To what we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

Wonder why it is that you don't see
What you've changed since we first met
And how much that is killing me
I know that I will always miss
The butterflies of our first kiss
And how you use to smile so easily

I wish that we could go back
To what we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

It's too hard to keep pretending
It's too hard to ignore
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I never thought that it will come to this
I know we'll never get back
To how we were before
'Cuz I know that I don't love you anymore

It's too hard to keep pretending
It's too hard to ignore
But I know that I don't love you anymore, anymore

The Fool

Dear Self,

I can't even put to words what I feel. Most of the time I try not to think about it. It's been helping so far but every now and then, in-between the spaces of busyness, it churns and coils in my heart. I feel that I should be upset or mad but it still boils down to that I understand. I understand completely. It's hard to feel angry when I feel like I know you so well. I wonder if I'm just a fool. But isn't that what love is? Just a fool.

You see and hear me the most when you feel me. 

More often than not, my words fail me.